Anonymous asked: Ur so fake. Do u really believe all of those secrets u post?
You’re right, I am phony. I post inspiring pictures when really I’m fucking miserable and completely alone. I go to bed in tears and wallow in self-pity. I dream about someone I hate so much it hurts yet at one time loved them the same way. I dream about those who have passed away and how I’ll never get to see them again. When I’m awake I dwell on the terrible things I’ve done and imagine what the world would be like if I had never been born. In public I put on a mask and try to fit in with the crowd. I’m a people-pleaser and crave acceptance. I want others to like me and think I’m a good person even though I know I’m not. Yes, I am fake and I have been for as long as I can remember. But hey, at least I acknowledge all of this. It’s better than being in denial, right?
ps- Happy New Year’s
